I think

I am going to be alright being single. Yeah I am emotionally attached to him because we went through a lot together. Had a lot of memories, firsts, I will never forget him. But maybe he was right to end things, as much as it hurts, our relationship towards the end wasn’t perfect. I needed a wakeup call and I got one and now I need to learn from it. I do want him back of course, but that’s not going to happen right now (learned that today from him lol ) we talked things out (screw the no contact rule) and yeah. I need time to grow up and learn from my mistakes and just do things I promised to do but want to do now because I can face it. It’s going to be hard, and will take one day at a time but I can do it. And if he meets another girl (and with my luck he will because he is truly amazing regardless if what he thinks ) oh well. But I do hope one day we can try again because I don’t want this to be over, I still really do love him and want to fix what I did wrong. But regardless I need this time, he needs his own and I’m just going to live life and not mope around like I did my sophomore year. The world is full of bright places and things to do and I need to experience them.